Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Proud Of Who We Are, Humble Beneath The Stars


If you are in a graduate school that requires the GRE’s or planning to attend one…you will understand my following statement: I was trapped in a room today with the people who make the GRE’s. They told us that they are basically the “test whisperer’s.”  Dear readers, if you don’t know me let me assure you I am nothing if not sarcastic and it took every fiber of my being to not say: “History will disagree with you!!! I will be vindicated!”

It was great however that we were able to get certified in teaching TOEFL, since I know that many of my future students in September will want to prepare for this test so that they can better their futures and I want to be the best tutor I can possibly be for them. And while I hate ETS with every fiber of my being for creating the GRE’s which don’t measure any form of math that we ACTUALLY USE in Sociology- I am grateful that they have designed a test that not only will allow my students to get into a university but also know that they will be able to fit in and communicate at the university. So overall it was a good day, we had some fun and learned tricks and teaching units to lead to our students success. Plus I get a fun certificate!
Then I realized that I often plan trips, or explorations with the idea that “history will vindicate me.” Let me explain- I wear funny socks, and while my society often mocks me I know that in the future people will appreciate them. I also know that in all seriousness most political activists, revolutionaries, and hopefuls will be vindicated. As I know that my life seems odd to most, I hope that the end of all that I do will vindicate the oddity of who I am! (But regardless, I will be odd forever.)


I think I should be disturbed by the fact that I got the idea of history vindicating me and other people from the musical “Assassins” by Stephen Sondheim when John Wilkes Booth is singing after shooting Lincoln and he states: “Let them curse me to hell, leave it to history to tell, what I did, I did well, and I did it for me country. Let them cry dirty traitor, they will understand it later.” Don’t get me wrong, I am NOT justifying Booth, but his sentence when applied to other situations is insightful. 

Fun Fact for the day: Sarah posted a picture she took of me on the bus last Saturday next to Sam and it is really similar to a picture my friend Gail took of me in Germany in 2011. I put them side-by-side and just thought: I have grown so much in 2 years, but there I am sitting in the same position on the bus staring into the world and dreaming. There are parts of your essence that can’t be changed and frankly shouldn’t be. I can’t wait to see if any other similarities occur! 
During the day I was lucky enough to get to know even more about my colleagues here. Today I got to know about how amazing K.C. is. She speaks not only English and Spanish but also Arabic and Swahili. But when she tells you this it is like it is nothing at all, like anyone could do what she did. And yet I struggle with languages so hard core that just watching her ease her way through Bulgarian is like watching a ballerina dance to Swan Lake. With ease and grace like no one is watching but the angels in heaven. She is also very kind, I think that K.C. is perhaps the most gentle person I have ever met, she reaches out to the little kids here with beauty and when she smiles it’s like the sun wouldn’t shine if she didn’t. She was lovely enough to walk with me to the gas station on our break and give me company and I love that she volunteered!

I also learned more about the kids here and what their favorite colors are, how many jokes they love to tell even when they tell them 5 times in a row. Annabet had to explain to me the interrupting cow joke before she would actually tell it to me but having a 5 year old holding my face in her hands while being dead serious about a joke is probably the most adorable thing in the world!

Today we had to do an activity where one team had to answer random questions about the other. The team opposite me said that my favorite sport was “Quidditch”…the fact that they guessed correctly based on conversations we have had about Dobby just showed me we are connected and having fun! We learned about Jake and his extroverted personality, Lane and his time in Germany, Victoria’s study abroad in Peru, Iliana’s love of bike rides, George’s love of massages, Blaine’s shared fandoms, and Erika’s sparkling personality.

I also found out I may be spending Christmas in Germany!! My friend from College, Verena moved home to Germany to marry the love of her life and is going to have a baby soon which I am incredibly excited about. But with the travel time that it would take to get there it would be hard to travel there on a weekend so I asked to start off my Christmas break there so I could see her but not interrupt. But she was amazing and told me it was more than fine to be there for Christmas, I really hope she means it because spending Christmas in Germany just sounds amazing and probably one of the best Christmases I will ever have in my life. I actually have always wanted to have a “Love Actually” Christmas and the idea of seeing her for Christmas makes me think of a mash up between Love Actually and Pirate Radio. Plus, I have missed her. I just remember meeting Verena and thinking how brave she was to move to another country, away from everyone she knew and loved, and get her degree here. I also loved her passion for family. From day one she was honest that she wanted to have kids and she was excited for it. Her passion for family is just fluid and “catching.” She makes me even more excited for nieces and nephews. Seeing her again will make me very happy and also I feel like it will complete part of a life journey. You know we all have those moments where we see friends after college and we are all grown up, settled and happy. I cannot convey how much I am looking forward to that moment. PLUS MEETING THE BABY!


As usual I am sitting here around a table with wine filled glasses as Dana discusses friendships, Sarah leans back leisurely in her chair, Jake leads the group in cheer, and Rebecca lights up the deck with her infectious smile and laugh. We rub off on each other and encourage each other. Morgan even got to me today with her love of Christmas songs and so I have been listening to Josh Groban’s Christmas CD all night!Jake just yelled into the lobby "I can be shallow!" and as I comment they tell me I am like Mr. Robitussin from the Princess Diaries...it's time for bed. Life is beautiful. 

“There’s Nothing Complicated About The Way We Live. We’re All Here For Each Other, Happy To Give. All We Have We Share. And All Of Us We Care. So Come On- Welcome To Our Family Time…”

Tonight’s song is from Phil Collins. Featured in the Disney film “Brother Bear” and discusses how wonderful it is to come home, enter a new family (the Fulbright family) and feel that joy!

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